You say good bye....

and I say Hello.

Finicky. Cats are said to be finicky. I don't agree with that statement. Cats know what they like and do not like. They make no bones about it either. If they don't like something, they don't eat it, do it or deal with it. They walk away from whatever is it that they don't like.

Finicky. No. True to themselves.

In the past year or so I've had to say goodbye to many good people I considered friends. First there was S. Then there was J. After J, there was M. Once M was gone, there was C. All of them good people, just not good for me. S. was like the wind and would blow at random. I never knew when to expect him or what to make of the so-called friendship. J. was an old highschool friend who professed his loyalty only to turn, tuck tail and vanish like a cowardly spectre. M. was another friend who professed his love to me years ago, only to resurface last fall in the attempt to be my friend. C. was someone I considered a friend, but now only realize that I really meant nothing to him.

All three of them I cared about and still do to some degree. At one point, they were all very important people in my life. Now, they just don't seem to matter..or maybe it is that they matter less because I am not making the effort to care.

On the flip side of all of this are the new friendships I've forged and strengthened. A. was found living across the street. J. though I've never met him in person, has been crucial to my happiness and joy. D. offered me an opportunity to help women in need and has become a good friend. There are countless others as well.

So I've surrounded myself with people who care about me and I them. They are amazing and I am so lucky to have them in my life. Yes I have had to say goodbye to friends that once meant the world to me. I grieved the loss of those friends. In the process, though, I have said hello to others that I probably wouldn't have.

Does that make me finicky like a cat?
I don't think so...I think I am finally being true to myself.

You say goodbye, and I say hello....