Ramblings of the Day

I have no idea what's going on with me lately, but it's intense and I like it.

Granted, things are not perfect, but really, are they ever?

I've finally reclaimed my house and for some reason feel compelled to clean and sort through it all, organizing, paring down and preparing for next year. I am inspired by my master plan. I'm not going to stay in NM much longer because there is nothing here for me. I don't know why it's taken me so long to realize that, but I'm happy I did. It's not a matter of if I am moving next year, but when. I am looking so forward to it even though the idea of driving half way across the country with 6 cats and 4 guinea pigs is less than appealing. They are my babies and will go wherever I go.

I've also got to study. I have at least 2 tests I have to take before I start applying to the few schools I have chosen. I have to do well on those tests because I want my applications to be the best they have ever been. A few years ago, I was terrified to take said tests. Now, well, for some odd reason, I am actually looking forward to them. They are just another one of the pieces of the puzzle I have to take care of so I can study what I want. I am going to grad school in my field. It's going to be hard and I know it and I don't care. I'm still going. Again, it's not a matter of if or maybe, but when.

So financially, it'd be nice if I got a contract and got to do so more travelling and get paid to do it. My Philadelphia trip sparked my spirit and now I have all this wanderlust. I am restless all the time. I like being home, but I'd rather be out, somewhere else working. Guess that will sort itself out when it's time. I have no idea.

I feel good. I keep losing weight and I'm not really trying. When I avoid certain foods, I feel soo good all the time which in turn, makes me happy and joyful. One of the side effects of all this eating is the weight loss. How crazy is that? I never am hungry. When I do eat, I never feel deprived. I just don't eat any sugar or certain types of carbs and then my ass shrinks. Hahahaha....I love it! May it continue until I'm back into my svelte size 8's. I have no doubt that's going to happen too.

Then there is 'the man'. Yes, it has happened. I never thought it was possible either, but it has and I couldn't be more thankful. I have suddenly met someone I am interested in. He is absolutely amazing. Of course, we haven't met in person yet because he's in the UK. Dammit. For some reason, that's how it goes with my life...anyway, I am hoping he is everything he seems to be and that it will be what I want it to be, but who knows. My life will, as it always has, go on with or without him. I'd rather it be with him, but again, who knows. I guess I'll just have to wait it out and hope for the best.



Gotta keep moving....Lots to do!